SATURDAY MORNING BREAKFAST SHOW

A flood of joy.

Have you ever just been so… exhilarated to the point that your brain is firing off a million signals at once and you just don’t know what to do with yourself? Or perhaps, lying in bed thinking about every possible scenario but not even minding that you can’t sleep? Maybe you just want to climb to the top of your three story house and shout at the top of your lungs because you want the world to feel your joy? This. A million times, this.

This year has been an amazing year for me, I’ve been able to accomplish some great things I thought I’d never do. I’ve been able to write commercials for national broadcast and even act in them. I had the opportunity to be a host and interview distinguished talent. I traveled to California with my closest friends on a road trip I’ll never forget. We had memories that will stay with me until I’m old and grey and keep repeating my youthful stories to the annoyance of my (possible) grandchildren. I’ve made new friends who’ve had huge impacts on my life, I’ve shed people who’ve only been holding me down. Honestly, this year had some of the highest of highs I’ve ever felt in my 23 years on this earth.

That’s not to say there weren’t bad times as well. In fact, in contrast to all these things I’ve hit some of my lowest points this year. I’ve felt loss like I’ve never felt it before. I had a lingering sadness that I didn’t know when it would be cured, who would cure it or if it would ever go away. I’m not going to delve into this too much, or have a pity party for myself but I wanted to preface what I’m about to say by letting you know that.

It’s all gone, every last ounce of sadness, fear, that dull lingering pain.. it’s finally been shed and I could not be more overjoyed. The year is coming to a close and I’m so uncertain what’s going to happen next. I do know that I’m ready with open and willing arms. I do know that romantically, the next person that has me is going to get me at one hundred percent. I do know I’m ready to give it all again. That cold, closed off, uninterested boy has been left in the dust.

Anyway, I thought you should know. You make me ~~happy~~ ecstatic.

Let’s go to the moon sometime, yeah?

-Ab